It Was Just Always There

                On this cold & dreary day I don’t have much to say.  My concentration is kind of zapped.  It’s been a gut punch of a week.  Long, sad & lonely.   There are things I want to write about but my emotions are interfering.   I’m tired. 

You can get consumed with the stress of life.  The unfair things that happen to you or the ones you care about.  You sometimes feel like you just can’t catch a break.  Everything begins to get filtered through the gloom and the bright happiness of life is obscured.  It can be hard to remain positive.  To have an optimistic take on life.  It’s a relief when you break free.  Sometimes you see something on a dark day that brings the light back into your heart.  It’s when you need it the most.  And it doesn’t have to be anything big or important.  It can be the simplest things.  A very common things that you just fail to observe on a daily basis.  For me, it was in the parking lot at HEB.  I was in a deep funk.  I was just sitting in my car kind of looking at nothing at all.  Zoned out.  And elderly couple were walking into the store and the man reached for the woman’s hand to hold.  It was this small embrace that touched me in a profound and unexpected way.  Something inside me began to burn bright.  I felt my eyes begin to water.  A deep happiness had settle over me.  A feeling that love is all around us if we choose to see it.  In the littlest of things.  Humans have capacity for horrible deeds, but inside I think there is more love than hatred.  It really made my opinion on humanity turn over in that moment.  It was a long day of dealing with s*** news and awful people.  A sad hopelessness settled on me.   The small act of reaching for the hand of whom is likely his wife.  The hand that he has possibly held for 50 years.  Some involuntary gesture he might preform every day. It touched me and changed my attitude for the day.  You really don’t have to look hard to find love.  For it’s all around us.  It’s just that sometimes you don’t see it.  But eventually love finds you and it’s when you need it the most.

I’m just going to post pictures for the rest of this blog.

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Jalapeño!

Chicken cheese enchilada soup.  I found a rip-off recipe for Chili’s.  I really liked it.  Thank goodness for that because we had a lot of leftovers since Bekah could not eat it because it was too hot.  It was not that hot.  I swear. 

Chicken taco salad.  I made some green sauce to go with it.  The chicken had a bit more citrus than I was expecting but that wasn’t a good thing.  I Once again had leftovers which I used to make nachos.

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Hoisin beef tenderloin. How could u possibly go wrong?  Grill to perfection.  That red jalapeño was REALLY f***ing hot.  I had to give up on it.  I believe I was laughed at because I couldn’t handle the heat.  Someone liked seeing me cry.

Seared tuna with seaweed salad.  Okay, I get it.  The salad isn’t for everyone.  Bekah absolutely hates it.

I had leftover steak so I thought I would make some teriyaki steak.  Oh look, I also have some miso soup.  This will be a great meal.  Well, the soup was good.  The steak was terrible.  It was over cooked.  Kind of like eating card board.  The flavor was WAY to salty.  I could have just licked a salt block.  This was an utter failure on my part.  I even tried to make some sriracha mushrooms a side and that was garbage too.  I guess my mind was elsewhere.

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I wanted spicy chicken from Ban Moon all week long.  I don’t know why I never satisfied the craving.  Friday I just decided to basically make my own.  It turned out to be a really good meal.  I used Panda Express orange sauce as the bass.  A little sweet, but what can you do.

Grilled Chicken w/ green chili gravy. A real treat. Just spicy enough. A twist on a comfort food.

Cocktail of the Week:  Hot Coco & Jameson